Event#5 Prep talk [Tag: Nancy]

[Katherine Drake]

[OOC: This happens after "Insert title here" and before "Deal with the devil".]

Katherine was holding Nancy's hand tight, trying not to squeeze to hard and brought her to the teachers lounge.
With her usual, hip swinging walk she went to sit down. She moved the chair a little bit closer to Nancy, crossed her legs and leaned back. "I know that you probably find it weird that I seperated us from the group , but they wouldn't be too happy about what I am about to say. We..", Katherine started explaining and stopped. She put her hands on her forehead and looked to the floor, trying to think of what to say and how to say, until she finally looked back up at Nancy and leaned foreward to her. "Listen, Nancy. You told me that someone is forcing you all to act against one another, right?", Katherine hold in for a moment to make sure Nancy was following her words, "I need you to promise me to look after yourself first. Can you promise me that, Nancy? You and I are very different. In a plane emergency I look after myself first and then give my neighbor the gas-mask, but how I remember you...You would try to help your neighbor first."
Katherine stood up and crossed her arms as she was walking around and tried looking out of the window. She hated moments like this, which was probably the reason why they barely happened at all. The most prominent time was probably with Stefan back in school. "Someone of your friends must be the cause of it. Or judging by the insane extent more likely a teacher. Someone who is or was angry at everything and everyone. And they know how to play this. So...do what they want. Because they will find a way and those who you spare..might kill you. That's the only way to make it out alive. Play the game, follow the rules.", Katherine turned around to Nancy and smirked cunningly, "Take a note from the Katherine-Drake-Book-Of-Self-Centrism okay? I want us to get out of here."

Deep down Katherine knew that this a horrible way of thinking. But she didn't want to loose Nancy, her own life and she still had no idea if Stefan went to school that day and was in there as well. She had to protect herself and the people she loved, hadn't she? 

[Nancy Holmes]

Nancy walked close behind Kat, who was holding her hand and dragging her away from the others. She didn't really fight it, she still felt weak from her loss, so she just followed her into the teacher's lounge. She wondered if she had ever been in here. Sure, she had taken a look inside to look for teachers she needed to talk to, but she hadn't really walked into the room as far as she could recall. It had always smelled like coffe, a smell that Nancy loved. Now the smell and the bright lights, the warmth, that used to fill that room were gone. It was dark and cold, deadly, like everywhere in the school since the earthquake. It was a perfect nightmare, no time, no day, no night, no escape. When Kat stopped and turned to her, Nancy looked at her with a numb expression.

"Listen, Nancy. You told me that someone is forcing you all to act against one another, right?"
She nodded.

"I need you to promise me to look after yourself first. Can you promise me that, Nancy?"
Nancy looked down on the floor. Could she? Of course she could... after all... that was what she had done until now, right...? Looking after herself, not after anyone else.

"...but how I remember you...You would try to help your neighbor first."
She shook her head, her swollen eyes hurt from all the crying. She wasn't that person anymore. In the past she would've done anything to save the others first and then herself, she had been sure about that all her life long. That she was the hero-kind of people. But the reality dipicted the opposite - she was a coward, ready to do anything she needed to keep on living.

"Someone of your friends must be the cause of it. Or judging by the insane extent more likely a teacher. Someone who is or was angry at everything and everyone. And they know how to play this. So...do what they want. Because they will find a way and those who you spare..might kill you. That's the only way to make it out alive. Play the game, follow the rules."

Some of my friends....? But... what? Who? Could she not trust everyone being trapped in here together with her? A sudden fear rushed through her body. Could she not trust anybody? No, that wasn't true. She could trust Kat. And Arielle. Phil...Tha.... She stopped lisitng names in her mind. Who did she even think she was, doubting the others when she herself was the one who should be doubted? One couldn't trust her. A teacher.... was there even any teacher here? Andrei and her aunt were the only adults she could remember at the moment. But if Kat was here without her knowing until now, maybe there were others too.... Or.... maybe Veronica was the only one here.... No.... that wasn't possible, right? She would never do this to any of us, she loved us. Loved me. No, she couldn't. She wouldn't. Play the game, follow the rules. Play the game, follow the rules. That's the only way to make it out alive. Play the game, follow the rules. Play the game, follow the rules. Play the game, follow the rules. , she chanted inwardly.

Kat was right. When she turned to her again, Nancy looked up and met her gaze. She even lifted the corners of her mouth a little at her joke. Then, she nodded. "I know you do... But... what if following the rules means hurting more friends? Or you? Or... do even worse things.... I don't know if I could do it... Or if I could, if I could even keep living with myself....", she sighed. If anyone could buoy her up, it was Kat. Or, Arielle. She closed her eyes for a moment. She was the only person Nancy would die for. Last time she had seen her, she was weak, so desperately needing help...calling for her.... She just hoped she was alright. She would do anything to keep her safe. Even disappoint Kat if that was what it'd take.

[Katherine Drake]

It seemed as if Nancy followed most of the things Katherine told her and at least tried to understand it. Even though Katherine could tell that Nancy was thinking about something, she hoped it was about Katherine's words. 

The swift moment she saw something like a smile on Nancy's face, Katherine looked down and a big smile spread across her face. It made her simply feel happy, to be able to light up her mood even if it was just a little and just for a second. 
"I know you do..."
Katherine looked back up and could already sense the worried undertone. However, she tried to give her the benefit of a doubt and listened to what Nancy had to say.

"But... what if following the rules means hurting more friends? Or you? Or... do even worse things.... I don't know if I could do it... Or if I could, if I could even keep living with myself....", Nancy said and briefly afterwards closed her eyes. 
Katherine let the weak and probably confused girl think for a moment and didn't disturb her. After some time she walked over to Nancy and sat next to her. There was no way Katherine could deny that Nancy had a point - it would be difficult hurting "friends", at least for Nancy. Katherine had one person to find, herself and another to protect, compared to Nancy's situation she had probably a pretty simple job to do. But the number of people didn't matter, most of the few people she ever loved were probably in there and had to get out safely.
"Nancy...", Katherine said calmly as she took the girl's hand with her own and held them tight and comforting, "If you don't follow rules..there are always consequences, you know? When in doubt, you have to think that they will probably do to three people you love what you should've done to one person. If you have to hit me - fucking hit me, okay? If you have to kick your lover - kick him."
Katherine thought about what she just said. It was all right, wasn't it? Not following rules in games always brings consequences. "Nancy, you told me you hurt one of your friends because you were afraid of dying. Isn't it better to hurt someone and fight, but you both have the chance to live and make peace? And you must remember, that there are few people to truly trust in these situations."

[Nancy Holmes]

It made sense what she told her. In games there were always rules you had to stick to. On the other hand... you could always try to cheat. It's only bad if someone catches you doing it. In that case, you loose the game. She swallowed. Was there even any way to cheat in this? Like.... trying to follow the tasks but somehow... being not able to actually go through with them? If she called out loud what her taks was - someone would try to stop her, right? Wa that cheating? Would it even work? WOuld Chris had stopped her if she told him what she had to do? ...Maybe...

Play the game, follow the rules. Play the game, follow the rules. That's the only way to make it out alive. Play the game, follow the rules. Play the game, follow the rules. Play the game, follow the rules.

"If you don't follow rules..there are always consequences"

"...Isn't it better to hurt someone and fight, but you both have the chance to live and make peace? And you must remember, that there are few people to truly trust in these situations."
Slowly, Nancy nodded. It was better. Maybe..... just maybe Thalia would grow to understand her one day and forgive her. If they both made it out of here alive. Play the game, follow the rules. Hopefully Thalia and the others followed the rules.

"And you must remember, that there are few people to truly trust in these situations."
That thought really made her uneasy. She bit her lower lip. Did she really have to be careful around everyone now? She didn't think anyone would be actually after them... not one of them. Not...by their own will. Nancy's eyes widened a bit. "Kat.... You're right. I should be cautious of everyone. You must know.... that... thing can also posess people. So, if anyone is acting weird... it's probably not the person themselves but something is making them act like this.", she said. That was a very important information, now that she thought about it more. "I didn't actually see someone being....posessed... but I heard about it from others. And I believe them. I am sure that nobody would willingly do anything like this!"

[Katherine Drake]

Katherine smiled proudly when Nancy nodded. Maybe it was all said and done then and Nancy would really fight for herself and be eager to get out. Feeling satisfied that she only had to get her out and not fight for her at the same time, Katherine was about to offer Nancy her hand to walk back to the group. However it quickly showed that it wasn't that easy. 

"Kat.... You're right. I should be cautious of everyone. You must know.... that... thing can also posess people. So, if anyone is acting weird... it's probably not the person themselves but something is making them act like this.",
Initially Katherine wanted to stop Nancy from talking, as it seemed as Nancy was trying to justify saving or sparing people. But then Katherine realized that Nancy actually gave her a warning. That meant that even if it was someone that seemed weaker was attacking her, the "thing" or person that was possesing that person could be much stronger. Katherine's eyes widened at that thought and for a second was caught off guard. Quickly shaking it off Katherine started walking around again with her signature walk.
 "I didn't actually see someone being....posessed... but I heard about it from others. And I believe them. I am sure that nobody would willingly do anything like this!
Katherine listened closely to Nancy and even though it could all be a lie, there was no way Katherine would ignore such a warning. "Nancy...Thanks for telling me so much. I really appreciate it", Katherine's voice changed from rather normal to a very serious voice, "You do realize that you just made my point clearer, right? That means we can't fight it. We have to...Nancy we have to kill whatever stands in our way. There are two persons I will not touch: You and S-.." Stefan... "-myself.." Katherine didn't want Nancy to think that they could make a list of persons to spare.  
Katherine walked to the closets, she wondered if there was something useful inside there. Let's see...Truman...Williams...Kishi... Katherine turned to Nancy and gave her an excited smile "Let's see what Kishi has to offer. That bitch was annoying when we organized that workshop." Katherine forcefully tried opening the closet.

[Katherine made a perception check]

[Administrator]

Dice result: 1D10 => 9
Success; you found an item!

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Pulling the door with full force, Kat has finally managed to open it, almost falling back to the ground. A framed picture fell from its spot on the shelf and crashed into pieces. The (now damaged) photo of Miss Kishi with Nancy's parents and baby Nancy was now laying down on the floor. With a big sincere grin, Veronica was hugging her sister from the side, the baby in her sister's hands was holding her finger, smiling wide. Besides the picture, some boring documents and a small bottle of some kind of pills, there was nothing of interest here.

Item: antidepressant pills (sanity +1)

[Nancy Holmes]

"Nancy...Thanks for telling me so much. I really appreciate it"
She nodded shortly at her former babysitter.

"You do realize that you just made my point clearer, right? That means we can't fight it. We have to...Nancy we have to kill whatever stands in our way. There are two persons I will not touch: You and S-myself.."
Nancy shifted at her spot, feeling uncomfortable by her harsh words. She was just trying to protect her, she knew that and she also knew that Kat would be willing to sacrifice everyone else when necessary - but there was a difference between her and herself. "I can see you point Kat, I really can. But... it's easier for you to say that. I mean, I don't have any doubts you'll do whatever you can to make it out and help as many others as you can if the situation allows it - but you don't really know anyone here. You don't have any connection to them except that small workshop, none of them holds a special place in your heart.... It's only natural that you think so. But I.... they are important to me. Some more than others, but they're all precious human beings - I don't know... I don't think I could do it even if I tried...! I think maybe... maybe it's better to die yourself than to be a murderer....." her voice got lower with every sentence, the last one barely a whisper but still loud enough for Kat to hear it in the silent classroom. There were so many people she was sure that she could never kill. Arielle, Phillip, Si- .... Thalia. Tristan. Kat. Her aunt. Hurt, yes. She could magane that. She did that with Thalia and none of them was dead now. But killing.... The thing wanted her to kill her but she had somehow managed to turn the words around so she only harmed her a little bit... That was more important than their friendship. Keeping them alive. If she had to, she would do it all again.

"Let's see what Kishi has to offer. That bitch was annoying when we organized that workshop."
Her gaze snapped back to Kat when she heard how she tried to break open a closet that was probably lock- oh, nevermind. She didn't like how she was talking about her beloved aunt, but she was afraid to say anything against the older girl. She probably didn't mean it as harsh as it came out... Sure, Veronica could be difficult at times, especially during the past months, but she was going through a hard time. Everyone would be a bit brusque when they'd go through a divorce. There would come better times again. She was startled when a frame fell from the desk, falling to the ground and splitted in thousands of pieces right next to her. Luckily, no glass shards dig into her skin.

It was... A picture of her partens with her aunt. Right in the middle, there was a baby. Her. She knew that picture, the same one was standing at her home on one of the cupboards in the living room. There was a huge crack right between herself and Veronica. She sighed and hunkered down to take the photograph out of the broken frame carefully. She looked so happy here, it made Nancy smile gently. She dearly hoped after all this mess that had happened to her aunt that she would find the same joy again she was feeling when they took this picture. She folded it in half and put it into her pocket, next to the list she had found when she was with Phillip.

Curious about what else Kat found, Nancy stepped closer to her. Some documents it seemed and a bottle of pills. "Pills?", she asked, when Kat lifted to bottle up to read the tag, "What are they?"

[Katherine Drake]

Katherine already imagined herself falling on the floor and breaking some bone, but luckily she managed to stand safely when she was finally able to open the door. Oh my freakin' god.. Quickly looking over some of the stuff and broken pieces, Katherine completely ignored the photo that fell out of the closet. "Well look at this", Katherine said slyly, "Indeed, Nancy Drew. Seems like your aunt had some troubles and could use a good old antidepressant." Katherine couldn't help but let out a slightly mocking laugh. As she showed Nancy the pills, Katherine did something that was not very usual for her. "Sorry..A bad, bad, not funny joke..", Katherine gave Nancy a kind smile and actually even felt a little bit bad for that comment.

"What do you say? Should we split them up? Just in case we get seperated?". Katherine pushed all the documents together and put them back in the closet. Then she walked over to Nancy and no matter what she would've answered, she would've done the same. All of a sudden she ripped a part of Nancy's skirt off , took it and used it to wrap half the amount of pills in. "Put in your bra or somewhere safe", Katherine said kindly, "I hope here's no boy that you would let go near that area. Well who am I kidding..I actually do hope there is a boy.. But don't let him take the pills, okay?".

"Nancy...Don't think I wanted to ignore what you said earlier...I know that we are in different positions, but do you think I would like to hurt or kill someone? No! HELL NO!", Katherine argued as she walked up and down, rattling with the half full antidepressant pills and she couldn't help but getting louder towards the end. "I mean.. I am sorry. No wait I am not. Because this isn't a normal. But hey, let's play "who would rather"; Who would you rather like to see die? Your friend? Or your friend and you? You need to grow up, Nancy. Otherwise we won't make it out and if you decide to die in here, I'll follow you. Because I love you, Nancy and won't let you do that. So actually you can choose to kill one or three with one childish decision."

Katherine walked back to the table and sat down, still rattling the pills. Was it the best way to tell her that? No. Would she really kill herself if Nancy would decide to die? Maybe, probably she would still  try to get out. Did she feel bad for telling a young girl to screw all of her friends to safe herself? No. The more Katherine thought about the chance of Nancy doing such a mistake, the sadder she got. How could this girl get to her so fast again? She really was one of her only few weaknesses. 

[Nancy Holmes]

"Indeed, Nancy Drew. Seems like your aunt had some troubles and could use a good old antidepressant."

" .............."

"Sorry..A bad, bad, not funny joke.."
Wow, she actually apologized. Just don't make a big deal out of it, pretend that it's normal. Nancy shrugged and said: "Yeah... it's okay." It made Nancy feel better about what she had said though and it confirmed her former thoughts. She knew Kat easily let one or another mean word slip over her lips, but she wasn't mean at heart. She was just really hardened.

She nodded at her offer to split the pills up. She could actually use those, considering everything that was happening here. And also, they would definitely get seperated again. Nobody could stick together when the magical whatever was happening. "Wha-!!?", she exclaimed as the other girl suddenly ripped her skirt apart. "Hey, what-?" Now that she looked closer it had been just a small stripe of fabric, the skirt still covered everything necessary. Well... okay... She watched as Kat put half of the pills inside the piece of skirt, roped it up and passed it to her. "Thanks....", she mumbled.

"I hope here's no boy that you would let go near that area. Well who am I kidding..I actually do hope there is a boy.. But don't let him take the pills, okay?"

"Uh.... no, there isn't. So it should be safe.", she replied with a shrug and put the pills actually in her bra. It was actually a good and safe storage. For pills, for money, for her phone... Stuff like that. Then, the topic shifted back to the core.

"But hey, let's play "who would rather"; Who would you rather like to see die? Your friend? Or your friend and you? You need to grow up, Nancy. Otherwise we won't make it out"
Silently, the younger girl listened to what Kat said. "........You really think it would make no difference? If I don't follow the orders and kill someone, then someone else will for sure...? That's... But... how can you know? Maybe The other person will live if you decided to... well, to die for them."

"And if you decide to die in here, I'll follow you. Because I love you, Nancy and won't let you do that. So actually you can choose to kill one or three with one childish decision."
"Wait, what?" Overwhelmed and confused she looked at her opposite. She shook her head in disbelief. Kat would never do that. Die for her? Never. "What are you even saying?! You haven't spoken to me for YEARS and now you say you would murder yourself if I died? It's honestly hard to believe that. You've always been living by the motto charity begins at home. Why change that now?", she said with a balky expression. It had hurted her that she  had seemed to have forgotten her over all these years. And then suddenly reappering for a worrkshop. Out of the blue. Expecting that everything would be as it used to be. Well, she was wrong if she thought that way.

[Katherine Drake]

"Wait, what?", Nancy said confused. Katherine was convinced that she said everything the could to make Nancy fight and fight only for her. Since it also probably was a rethorical question, she didn't even think to give another speech trying to make Nancy think Katherine's way.

"I said everything I-", had to say... Before Katherine could finish her final sentence, Nancy stopped her. "What are you even saying?!", Nancy sounded quite stubborn to Katherine. Katherine was actually quite shocked with that comeback, unbelieving she looked at balky girl in front of her. As a response Katherine simple raised her left eyebrow and intentionally gave her a condescending look. You're not serious right?.... Definitely not being in the mood for a fight with a girl she actually just cared for, Katherine rolled her eyes and stood up. But before she could walk around again, enjoying her hip-moving walk, Nancy started her own speech for real. 

"You haven't spoken to me for YEARS and now you say you would murder yourself if I died?" 
Katherine stopped every single movement and was as if she was frozen for the entire sentence. Without any hesitation this girl really came for her and the worst part of it all: She hit a weak spot and whatever would follow, would be right - and it was.
"It's honestly hard to believe that."
Anger, guilt, disgust, rage, sadness - With that one sentence all of these and much more hit Katherine and she didn't know how to react. Never in her life was Katherine in such a situation, since she never let anyone come this close to her and make her feel some sort of guilt. 
"You've always been living by the motto charity begins at home. Why change that now?"
Still standing still and not having looked at her since she started, Katherine finally turned around to Nancy again. "Charity begins at home", Katherine repeated without any emotions, simply neutral. Her eyes narrowed while she looked at Nancy. She walked closer to Nancy and she tried hard not let the many emotions get the best of her. "We're done here, Nancy.", she said while only focussing on the anger she felt. But then it happened, a single tear roll down her cheek and she quickly shook her head and started walking towards the door. However, before walking away she walked back to Nancy and pressed her part of the pills against her chest. "Charity begins at home", she repeated once more and gave her a disappointed look. Disappointed of Nancy? Maybe a bit. But mostly actually disappointed of herself. Nancy was right and that's why Katherine was so angry.

She starting walking towards the door again, she forced herself to stop the tears and went on walking with a narrowed look.

[Nancy Holmes]

Katherine had turned her back on her the whole time Nancy had been speaking, which was truth to be told making it easier to just let out all the choked feelings she was having about her fromer babysitter. She had never gotten any kind of explanation, not a letter, not an e-mail, not an apologize. She had thought that she would simply disappear again after the workshop and everything would be as it was before. Unsolved. Unuttered. Some taboo-theme to not bring Kat's wrath or anything about her. But now... it had just slipped. And Nancy didn't regret it.

She had to gulp though, when she turned around to her with that angry look in her eyes. Just as expected and Nancy grew a bit afraid of what would be coming now. She was coming closer and Nancy seemed to shrink a bit. "We're done here, Nancy.", she said. Well, that was probably it. Instead of solving this together, she was just blocking her and eluded- Her eyes widened when she saw the little tear falling from her eye. Was that... a hallucination? She didn't have time to react to the unusual sight before Kat swooshed around and walked towards the door.

Still startled, Nancy only stared at her when she came back again and pushed the bottle of pills against her breast, causing the raven-haired to automatically clasping her hands around it to not let it fall on the ground. With typically well-thought last words, she walked away again, leaving the room.

She needed a moment to process all of it, but then she called her name to stop her. "Kat." It sounded more determined than she had thought, which was good because Nancy felt bad for what she had said earlier. It seemed to really have hit her. The last thing she had expected was that Kat was actually hurt by her words. Yell at her, yes. Maybe even slap her for her impudence, but not....crying... She walked over to her. "Why are you...crying?", she asked, seriously confused about that. She would've never guessed the showgirl was regretting anything. But was that it, regret? She put the bottle of pills on top of a table, in order to give Kat a hug or anything if needed, but she got distracted when the bottle fell on the ground and crashed on the floor. "Oh no...!", she exclaimed and kneeled down to pick up the pills inbetween the glass shards.


[Nancy made a perception check]

[Katherine Drake]

"Kat."
Katherine stopped right in the doorway. However, she didn't even think about looking at Nancy, but looked outside the room. From the bottom of her heart she wished she could just magically send herself back to her apartment in L.A.. Away from this strange horrible situation, away from the school, away from people like Nancy. But sadly she couldn't. In fact, she wasn't even able to completely walk away from her. Why did she? Did she expect some sudden realization from Nancy? No. Did she want to solve this? Say that she was sorry for leaving one of the two people who actually meant something to her? For sure not, that was a part of her that no one should know about.
Just keep on walking, Kat. If she goes on like this, she won't last very long. Just say goodbye to her and accept that. Katherine took a deep breath and took another step, but was held back again.

"Why are you...crying?"
Within a second she completely turned around, facing Nancy. Her expression was pure incredulity. It was almost like an isult to her and she felt so attacked by it, that for a moment she entirely forgot that she actually did cry. Nancy was busy putting the bottle of pills on the table and Katherine found the strength in her little distraction to make her turn."Let's get one thing straight, little angelic voice", Katherine said challenging, "I didn't cry. And you know what? I never did. When I left you all I did was...I just.. I smiled. Because I got everything I ever wanted! And.. and you? You and all the rest were and still are stuck in this place."
"Oh no...!", Nancy exclaimed mid-sentence and everything fell on the floor and the pills were in the middle of glass shards. "NANCY!", Katherine shouted concerned and jumped a few steps forward to Nancy, her arms reaching in the same direction. Even though it was definitely nothing major, Katherine acted out of reflex. Fuck...Perfect..., she thought to herself. She desperately wished to simply hate Nancy or even better: Not being interested in her at all. 

Angry with herself, Katherine crossed her arms and stood near Nancy. Worried but with a balky tone, Katherine tried to approach Nancy. "Did...Did you hurt yourself with the shards?". Slowly she let her arms down and looked away from Nancy. "I..I didn't smile.. I mean back then.. I..", this time she couldn't hide the guilt in her voice.

[Administrator]

Dice result: 1D10 => 3
Failure; you didn't find anything useful.

[Nancy Holmes]

"Let's get one thing straight, little angelic voice. I didn't cry. And you know what? I never did. When I left you all I did was...I just.. I smiled. Because I got everything I ever wanted! And.. and you? You and all the rest were and still are stuck in this place."

I smiled.

The tiny bottle slipped through Nancy's fingers and broke on the floor. She clenched this hand to a fist, before she kneeled down to pick up the pills without saying anything. If she wanted to hurt her and push her away, it had worked. All she always did was attack, attack being her best defense. The blue-eyed girl noticed how her vision blurred. She forced the tears away, but one or two drops escaped her eyes and dropped between the glass shards before her eyes ran dry again. Diamonds inbetween diamonds.

She heard Kat shout her name as if something terrible had happened. The girl should really get her feelings sorted out... Her head kept down, she collected all the pills from inbetween the shards, managing to not hurt herself with them. Then she pulled out the little package with the other half of the pills and filled it up. Then she stood up and looked at the brunette. She was standing near her, her arms folded in a repelling manner.

"Did...Did you hurt yourself with the shards?"
"No, I'm fine. Here.", she said, trying not to lay any emotions into her voice. They were done here after all. Nancy offered the other the piece of her skirt with all pills in it. "Take it.", she added as Kat hesitated. But instead, she just let her arms and maybe even her guard a little bit down.

"I..I didn't smile.. I mean back then.. I.."
Nancy just looked at her silently and downcasted. ".................." Was that supposed to be an apology? She waited to see if Kat would say more.

[Katherine Drake]

"No, I'm fine. Here. Take it."
Katherine lift her head uppish and with a quick move she took the pills. "Fine."

Slowly she let her arms down and looked away from Nancy. "I..I didn't smile.. I mean back then.. I..", this time she couldn't hide the guilt in her voice. But Nancy didn't react at all and Katherine didn't like that. She felt provoked by Nancy, even though it probably wasn't her intention at all and rather because she was the challenging one. "What do you expect, huh? No, I didn't feel bad. I never did. I got a one in a lifetime chance and I took it, Nancy. I get that you felt or even feel left behind, but I did what I wanted to do. I take what I want", Katherine kept in the same spot and gave Nancy a condescending look. Before Nancy could say anything Katherine let out a suppressed scream. "Okay. You're gonna here this once and never again. And I dare you to tell it anyone!", Katherine said angry (with herself), "I am selfish and I am not sorry for that. But I am sorry that I left you. But I was sure that when you'd be older I could take you with me.". Her voice got softer towards the end and when she finished her last sentence she quickly started walking up and down. "I hope that it will never leave this room.", Katherine said acting indifferent and tried to change the subject. "So... you are worried for a guy? Phillip? And some girls?"